To Beau, With Love

I am with love. Deep within my soul-
Eating away at the veins that make my heart grow weak
and stern like stone. A love so catastrophic,
Shakespeare's way with words,
couldn't compare to the stars I severed into the night
that formed the frame of your existence once placed back into the sky.
Into my life.

I am with love. Deep within my bones-
White with purity and stained with red of passion. Fury,
and compassion. A love so literary,
Percy Shelley's poetic flow,
couldn't compare to the brightness I stole from the sun
that I placed into my heart that ignited the flame-less candle
I ceased to endure. When you stepped there.
Into my life.

I am with love. Deep within my heart-
Pounding furiously to the beat of my internal song of want. Engaged,
and blithe. A love so esoteric,
John Keats' affectation,
couldn't compare to the hunger for ardor I sought from the wind
that I inhaled into my lungs, reviving the extinct essence of my whole.
Into my life.

I am with love. Deep within my blood-
Flowing madly like a stream between my channels. A rush of thickness,
harsh and inviting. A love so fleeting and harmonious,
Beethoven's symphony,
couldn't compare to the melodic flow of your heart beat,
trapped in my ears and released from my lips,
the night my heart sang a song of bliss. Almost as beautiful as your eyes.
And you came. Into my life.

With love.

By Me

Feel.

<3

Running, running as fast as you can. Do you think you'll make it?

Yesterday was the last day of week 5 of half marathon training. I ran a total of 10 miles yesterday, the most I have ever run in 1 day. Before this, the most I ever ran was 9 miles and change. My calves were on fire after mile 7 and they felt strained, but I kept on going. Mental stamina was in check. So far, everything has been working out great. I take my 3 days off a week and I have been following my training schedule almost to the T. Almost. But no complaints otherwise. It's difficult to juggle teaching 8-3pm and then going for a run. It's difficult, yes, but I do it. I do it because I love it.

The training schedule goes up to week 10, but I am going to continue this since my half-marathon is April 2nd in NY and by the time I finish week 10, it will be January. I will be running my normal 5ks and will be adding some 5 mile runs, 10ks, etc. for the extra training. A little extra goes a long way.

I couldn't be any happier with my progress and I have been working so hard to maintain my mental and physical stamina. Hoping for no injuries and anticipating the best to come.

I have learned that running not only gives me the confidence I lack at times, but it also gives me mental clarity and a sense of direction. When I run, I imagine myself running to a place of pure bliss. A place where I see nothing but light, smell nothing but clean air and feel nothing by warmth and the hot sun beating down my back. Even in harsh weather conditions such as these (and it's just the beginning), you have to get up every morning, do what you have to do and remember, you don't become better by saying, "I'll do it tomorrow." You get better by saying "Today was great, and I can't wait for the next time."