Made For Another World

 

I've got this deep desire inside of me that no experience in this world can satisfy and the only explanation to this phenomenon is that I was made for another world.

Follow My Lead

Close your eyes. Don't peak. Listen to the serene sounds of silence caused by sadness.

Now imagine this.

It's frigid. It's an uncomfortable numbness of the limbs caused by a mindless self indulgence of confusion and disappointment. There is a feeling of this. That there IS nothing else. At least so it is being thought. 

Time is being spent away in the corner behind a porcelain tub surrounded by thoughts of catastrophic reveries. And then it is time to be aware of something - that things could always be worse. 

But can it?

And then there is a realization that although love is being filtered throughout the veins, the tears that cause the eyes to swell -- that splash -- crash faster than a new found admiration.That can be okay... 

For some people.


It hurts, doesn't it? To know that after everything... the hard work, the passion, the intensity... the drive... can so easily disappear when one little thing goes wrong. One turn is being made in the wrong direction and you're lost. When one thing makes you realize that you're doing something that you probably  shouldn't be doing because it's not making you as happy as you'd think you'd be. Unfortunate.


Keep your eyes closed. You feel that? It's gloom. Doom? That's a little too dark for me.


Now open your eyes. You see that? 

There's a girl who wishes to be free. There's a girl who looks just like me.

With This Spring, I Thee Wed

It sure is an amazing thing to be able to wake up in the morning and have the sun be bright against the backdrop of the sky. As Spring approaches, I grow more and more anticipated with the wonders of the earth that come to bloom during this season. The trees and flowers are sweet smelling and vibrant in color, the clouds remain as cotton balls painted across the sky and the wind, mildly warm and fresh remind me of a time when all I ever wanted to do was be outside. I strive for this month (or even April) to be the month where I can be that girl who wants nothing more than to lay out on a grassy field, looking up the sky and counting every beautiful thing I can see. And the first thing I'd notice is that person laying next to me, sharing my dreams, my adventures and my happiness under the sun.  What joy fills my heart the warmer the days grow. I couldn't be any happier for this month to come and go.

Cheers to an amazing Spring. Compliments of my fluttering heart and hopeful endeavors.

Elvis said it...

And I've learned throughout the years of loving people, that it is the most extreme emotion that one can suffer from, that one can die with, that one cannot live without and that one can be ever so happy as to never want to live with any other emotion. 

It careens through my veins up my legs and into my core exploding with a spark at its tip that transcends a whole new fire of rebirth. I would have to consider this feeling something everlasting that although has brought great grief to my life, has also brought me new beginnings and exciting futures filled with adventure, resonating echos of laughter and an explosion of hope and amazement.

Love is all I ever wanted to experience in this new life and I am so thankful to be able to love and be loved because without that feeling, I don't know where I'd be mentally and emotionally.

As a young woman, I have yet to experience so much more that love has to offer, but I will say that the feeling I have acquired so far is so immense, that it has made me a believer; a happy soul. I don't ever want it to end because it really does liven up the body and mind and creates another kind of being that lives inside of you. A being vulnerable yet reserved to its surprises and restless yet comforting. 

That's the kind of healthy you want to be. That's the kind of healthy I live for.

Live like it's your last breath.

Laugh like you'll never be able to laugh again.

Love with all of your heart.  

And remember...